Part Of a fool

Within Temptation

Sunday, September 24, 2006

This song reminds me of the chalet , & you ppl ((: LOVES *Tho we fade ;Once again ..Mermories Stays.你要幸福...

Actually , I've plenty to rant. But not sure to start from where. I really had a hard time supressing my emotions this few days. I never thought things happened & then ended. In a blink of eye. Its certainly too sudden. problematic week too. so much trouble. I don see the need to recite what happen too. cze 's it truely sucks.

But well , life still goes on. & for all I know , Im left with 4 more days in school. After math it would be N'levels & tadah ! Off I go. To be exact , am I really that happy ? I seriously dont know where to head for my future undertaking. Laterally it definitely deprive me eh ? But now , all I thought is about those temp no worries days after the exams. That shows how naive I am. & i dont deny it. So much activities planned already , therefore I must braved through everything. hehs ! ;p

Prolly I should "Take a step , Look at step." I see no meaning for me to dwell about it luh. Instead , I should be buoyant ((: & for those ppl out there like me , no point stressing ownself eh ? Cze we know , we aint the typical study type luh. HOR ?!

Browsing through people blogs. & I always find similarities in all. Thats the monmentary BGR. & the one whom always found themselves being dumped , cheated are mostly Girls. I dont understand , why do ppl fall for all those sweet talks bullshit & perjure themselves in all those falsehood. Yes , & that includes me. Pathetic isnt it ? LOL ! & then , many many "whys" invaded me.

Prolly when it comes to a new era. Guys would be mostly seen to be dumped ! Who knows when ? No used pitying yourself , for being cheated of your feelings or your money or your virgin. Instead , you should learnt your lesson & be smarter then ever. Its pointless brooding over it, since it over. What done is done. I guess , everyone expectations are way too high, "perfect" is a need, but have you ever reflect on yourself? are you that perfect likewise? Sad to say no one is.

Its all full of twists & turns. Thats what life is :]

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Monday, September 18, 2006

I missed' .... T-T
I swear this is gona be one long entry.

& yea , seriously speaking luh , who doesent want peace? & god , im like yearning for it.
And recently there's so much problems arising here & there. They just love to stare. & it tooks up our time & anger. Some much time wasted on those fucking adolescent kids. I am like so tight up. Who's there to release all my pain & sufferings ? I thot he would, I thot they would, BUT everything turns out to be my wishful thinkings. How disheartening.

As months / years goes by. Everything changes. Yes , Almost everything. To think of it , its really saddening luh. I really want to go back to the past. I will cherish everything & anything. I wun even let it fall into this dreadful situation. Because of not cherishing , I lost a few of them. Everytime I peep at my neos prints , i'll tend to laugh. Worst , I even cried.
Mermories came upon me.

The days at Nicholas's house. Partying like craze. Shout as if we own the whole 333. LOL! Steamboat , playing cards , doing forfeits. & block catching. But now , all of us are leading our own lives. But ppl , do know that if there's a chance , I really hope to go out as a group again. ((: I believe you ppl are mugging hard now for N's , i wished all of you the very very best.

I missed Joan alot. It've been months , no a year or so. We hav not spoke to each other. I dunno why also. Somemore we are in the same school. I remember clearly , she's the craziest of all. & with her around , all of us would definitely go insane with her. But now , NOTHING. Tho , its like stupid of us to hang around in the arcade , majiam its our home LOL. But those are mermories. Sweet ones :)) & mermories stays even if you ppl fade.

& I missed the old Yonghuat. He changed. To another person. Good for him , but our friendship seems to be drifting. Those days tgt with Jesmond & Yongxiang. Pool at champion , the laughters , steamboat at Marina south & the fireworks. Its gone.

& yes. Those Champion days with Haroy & ppl. All gone too. & derick ? No more contacting. & those wonderful moments during my chalet. I jolly well know that , I can never bring it back. But like I say, its mermories that no one can take away. But at least im still contacting with the rest , I just hope it continues. =]

& Ahjoy , too. Tho I only get to know her only for just a few months ? I felt that we somehow can click well. & i miss those lil chats we used to have in the past. She is just like a elder sis to me , always giving me advices. I hope we wun lost contact, girl.

Lastly , MIKADO ! ( danny ) whom I am very curious about how he's doing & his whereabouts. I don seem to even know a single bit luh. Indeed , a very good friend. He's the only peep , who is there to give me good advices , 2 years back.

Being with them , somehow I wish time would pause for that moment.
Does the term "sisters " , " besties " , "buddies" , "good friends" comes & go ? I pray , never.
I hope the ones that i still have , wun go.
Everything , its leading me to infinity melancholy.

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Friday, September 15, 2006

Im so bored online'ing. So I came to blog.

& HAPPY BDAE to my dearest baobei ((:
& indeed she shocked me last night -.-
forever , we will be ; my dear. =p

This week kinda relax. But the stressed from my parents would always be there -.-
The war is still going on btwn Ms kok & Us. Thus Monday need to go for some couselling thing.
Pon on Tues ; Went to Jy hse. Slacked & watch Kungfu Mahjong. Then head back my home , wait for me to changed & we went for movie. Yea , Devil Wears Pranda. Nice show luh.

Oh yes oh yes ! Thurs , im really happy luh. =)
WE successfully ran out of SCHOOL ! ((: But kinda lame to act as Express students. LOL !
Thn we went to sp to eat , then to Yh 's house. Then recieved Haroy 's call.
Met him , & head down to YSS. So borring luh. But indeed those girls are really soo XL !

Pls , Pls , Pls ..
Dont make me hate you.
You wun liked it , & i wun want it.

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Monday, September 11, 2006

Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

This is like 90% true ? LOLS ! esp the part on education.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis: You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Sunday, September 10, 2006

MR NG ZHI QING .
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Let me tell you. No matter how hard you try to provoke me , or having some evil motive , I'll wun fall into your trap. & pls fucking get this right , everything started off with your attitude. Yes , i admit .. I was the one who threw that tissue down. I am just doing the likewise okay , tho all of you denied. And ITS your ppl who open his mouth first okay. And IT was you who pointed middle finger to me FIRST. So , conclusion is what ?

& its fucking so long ago thing already okay ! You as a guy , staring at me , liftin up your bloody middle finger. Meaning ? Very man isit ? You can continue doing all this , majiam i give a damn to you luh. Pls la , how old already , fancy doing such low class act. tsk.

So what are you trying to prove now ? Tio chiam , but you never die isit ? Laugh Out Loud ! If you wana play , i'll play along. Definitely. I dont even want to imagine the pathetic look of yours , lying in the hospital bed ? waha -.-

& to those xiao didi of yours ; the thought of them walkin behind a LONG - LIFE man , LOL ! ha , how dumb. & this is aint of that shorty business la hor , what for the need of him to open his golden mouth?.. ohya , aint he well known for being a dirt ? eww , la sap kia.

Since i am blogging this out already , im prepare to face your upcoming childish acts. & get this fuck into your brain , you are the one looking for trouble now okay !

by all means , continue pointing middle finger , continue staring with your prettaye eyes , everything i wun even give a fuck to you. Want to seek attention , haha easy. need not do all this actually ya ? definitely , over my dead body i wun even forget you eh.

& ya. I am awaiting for you to chu new pattern. Maybe like , eh more middlefingers ? LOLOL ! But then again , you call yourself a MAN doing all this ? hahaha. i doubt so. Then then again , why not confront me instead of doing all this ? Come thrash your unhappiness la. LOL. Then then again , you better stay far away from me , just in case i threw tissue & hit you or your friend duh ? Nono , i am afraid later i hit your injury ah. Didnt your friend mention that wah , the tissue i threw so power one ? Majiam stone sial.

WALAO. din know i am so strong ley.

Eh , to think of it , i type this entry until liddat. What if ppl come & slap me ? Oh dear ! shit. Perharps i've preach too much luh.

But , all for you la. Read it anot , but at least im ranting now.
Main point is for you to put horse come luh.

Ps : Dont hurt your old injury okay ? rofl

TO HELL WITH YOU !

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Drats.
Im am like so extremely flat now. =//
Way Beyond Description. As if theres thousands of ppl stepping on me.

Firstly , My mothertongue nearly left me with tears.
Secondly , today's ss , i screw it once again.
How sad man. Tragedy.
Two BIG blows straight in a row.
Even superman wouldent have been able to take it.

I somehow felt that I wrote out of point for my Mt paper One. Paper two , not any better too.
WALAO EH ! T-T
Nevermind , I did last minute mugging for my ss tho my eyes were like so fucking drowsy. Yes , Chapter Three. The Sri Lanka & Northern Ireland. & it wasnt me alone who was like mug until siao okay ! Thanks Bawani la. I swear when I leave canberra , I'll give her a Medal for being such a great teacher eh ? Her so accurateeeeeee prediction. In the end , nothing of that shit came out. At the point of time , I sooo much wanted to leave the hall. Cze' I knew it would definitely be a waste of time , if i were continue sitting there like a fool.

The SEQ seems so unfamilar to me. I wrote sth very dumb.

Singapore Prime Minister , Mr Lee kuan Yew was very sad when Singapore & Malaya seperate.

Wtf luh. You see , dumb ppl write dumb things. That was suppose to be a essay Qn and it cost the hell of my ten marks ! To think of it , no point pondering what , Its All Over.
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My mom's correct. I have only got myself to blame. No point crying over toppled soup. Eventually the soup would get dry too eh ? Sigh.

Prolly becze' I've been slacking like nobody business. Somehow treated N 'levels like those Common Tests? LOL. I believe most of them would stayed at home before the exact exam day right ? Fugly , I din. No , We din =]

Sat was suppose to be revising for SS. But me & Cat was prolly ogle - ing at guys. LOL !
Walking around the whole fucking Sun Plaza. We decided to go for some chilling session at Sembawang Park ;p Yes luh ! We were budget la ! Bought alcohol from fairprice =// & smoke some low class ciggs -.- LOL !

Woo. Was like nearly reaching Johor man. Even ; our phones sever changed to some bagala , Digi stuffs. haha. Sat down , chitchat alil. One by one teared. Except for Xin and Yp. Aiya , Yp was drunk la ! So damn hilarous luh. Ya im bad. I actually laughed when i see her go bonkers. =((

I dunno what the fucked that made me cried. Hmm , don wished to know nor mention any further. ((: At least , Im like feeling so much better after having so soo much kept in my damn heart. hehs ; sound pathetic uh ?

Went home ard 10 liddat. Was feeling so damn lousy la. At the same time drowsy. Oh ya , Ahduck waas great be'cze she aint feeling good herself , but shes still there to console us ((:
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Sunday , I was good , to acc Haroy to the Expo to get his mp3s. ((:
I couldent stop myself from praising ownself =/ LOLS ! The place soo fucking crowded. After getting the mp3s , left for Sun Plaza. Yx came to join us too. Talked alot , almost all of it were the past. LOLS. Left at ard six , yx came to my hse.

Ohya. She's the perfect friend, i must say. The godness of my life. I love her sooo =]
Tho I always kpkb you , but i care and love for you the most okay ?! =p

YWith Love , Georgina
Within Temptation

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Stress Is Killing Me.

If you dont want me to die becos of this , somebody , knock some sense into my dad PLS ? LMAO ! -.-

Okay , I dunno why am i still laughing my ass off when im feeling so fuckup right now.
I want this burden off. Cant' they just jolly - well give me a break ? Who Doesent know N'levels are around the corner. But thats definitely not the way to stress me.

And don ever compare me with your friend kids. Comparison can killed okay ?! I am sure of what I want for my future undertakings. I am the only child , who else are you ppl going to dote other then me ? Dont use this as an excuse to show what a doting parent you are. Pls , I am totally worn - out.

I wouldent' have bothered.
I should 've just took my stuffs , and leave this home.
But I know , It's just a part of my lil'devil thinkings inside me.

Everything seems like a nightmare to me.
I am utterly miserable.
My parents , my friends , him.
Ending this suffering would be fine, suicide is adolescent, I won't.

I pity this dreary world. Everyone wears different mask, different face everyday. You never knew who were the true ones because too much bogus are around us. See ? How loathesome this world is now.

I do wonder at times , do i get something in return for being nice ? I am starting to doubt. Whats the point of me being meticulous and caring ? Not everyone listens to me. Somehow it sucks to the extend when they dont even want to listen. I hate sharing at times because sometimes, not all understands but pretended to. I felt the pain they are going through , but can they feel mine ? I am not trying to gain symapthy from ppl. I just wana preach out my feelings. Thats all.

YWith Love , Georgina

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